Off to a Bad Start

So, the baby isn't even born yet, and I'm already feeling like an inadequate mom. Found out today that I was outside of the range on my one-hour glucose test, so I have to do the 3 hour test. Could be that I have gestational diabetes. On top of that, my hemoglobin is low, so I have to take an iron supplement - something I should've been doing since the 2nd trimester. And, I haven't been drinking nearly as much water as I should, which apparently is very bad because it could lead to early labor. I also feel guilty about my general lack of attention to what I eat in terms of making sure I eat lots of healthy stuff with good nutrients for the baby. So, I'm pretty depressed about it. I thought I'd be really good about this type of thing too, and I haven't been at all. I hope that the baby is okay and that I haven't hindered its development.

My husband doesn't seem to understand this depression. When I called him and told him I was upset about the whole glucose thing, he said "let's go get ice cream tonight." I was pretty flabbergasted at this. Anyway, we haven't been on the same page lately. Sometimes he's super sweet and nurturing, other times I feel like he's just a big jerk. Maybe I expect too much.