The Last Night

Tonight is to be my last night of nursing N during the night. Tomorrow night we are completely weaning him from night nursing (although I'm still holdig on to nursing him before bed). Coincidentally, I just got my period back after nearly 2.5 years. I don't know exactly how I feel about completely night weaning him. I guess it's time, but according to whom? I know that I've complained about lack of sleep for so long now. Probably it'll be better for both him and me for him to totally night wean - he can hopefully get a full night's sleep and so can I. Lately he's been a total nursing fiend. His routine is to wake up anywhere between 3 and 5 am and want to nurse. Sometimes he'll nurse on both sides and that'll be enough and he'll roll over and go back to sleep. But often he'll just be on and off the boobs for a long time. This is no good because neither of us sleeps well. So we decided to move him into his own room tomorrow night. Part of me wants to do this - it'd be nice to have our room back to ourselves, to be able to watch TV in bed. But part of me really doesn't want to give up sleeping with N in the same bed. I love it. I love it even when he is draped all over me. Also part of me doesn't want to do it just to spite my father-in-law. Who is obsessed with us moving Ennio into his own room. Well I suppose there is still time to change my mind about it all. . . .